in the depths of despair

when you are so far from the road you thought you were on

when you can't find the light

and loneliness whispers in your ear that you'll never be rid of him

when you feel yourself slipping away from the people you thought were your rocks

but turn out just to be the pebbles bought in by the tide

when you look out to the horizon

and see nothing but grey

no distinguishable features between ocean and air

nobody, nowhere, nothing to glean comfort from

you decide to be your own soulmate

but even the thought of loving, or even just accepting yourself

makes your heart drop and your stomach churn

this feeling of nothingness

this echo of dead quiet

broken up by unbearable shoutings of failure

i am an arid landscape

as far as the eye can see

i am a desert island

surrounded by nought

i am the dim night sky

looking down on bleak futures.

wasted

Songs that mean things part II.

Peaches - Talk to me.

double whammy.

Songs that mean things.

Will someone please call a surgeon
Who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
That you're deserting for better company?
I can't accept that it's over...
And I will block the door like a goalie tending the net
In the third quarter of a tied-game rivalry

So just say how to make it right
And i swear I'll do my best to comply

Tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together

I feel I must interject here you're getting carried away feeling sorry for yourself
With these revisions and gaps in history
So let me help you remember.
I've made charts and graphs that should finally make it clear.
I've prepared a lecture on why i have to leave

So please back away and let me go
I can't my darling i love you so...

Oh, oh

Tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together
Don't you feed me lines about some idealistic future
Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures

I know that I have made mistakes and i swear
I'll never wrong you again
You've got a lure i can't deny,
But you've had your chance so say goodbye
Say goodbye

"Nothing Better" by The Postal Service.

I don't know if I'm the girl or the boy in this song. Either way. I'm effed.

sometimes, I just don't even know..
what the fuck is going on with my life.

seriously.

home

Friday night, sitting on my bed, in my quiet house, the weather is balmy, i'm stitching up a dress, i'm listening to edward sharpe and the magnetic zeros and I am so content.

she got jumper cable lips, she got sunset on her breath

words of wisdom.

"It's actually a rare thing to discover what it is you love to do, and I encourage you to remain unapologetically consumed by it. Be faithful to your gift and very confident in its value." - Jonathan Ive