in the depths of despair

when you are so far from the road you thought you were on

when you can't find the light

and loneliness whispers in your ear that you'll never be rid of him

when you feel yourself slipping away from the people you thought were your rocks

but turn out just to be the pebbles bought in by the tide

when you look out to the horizon

and see nothing but grey

no distinguishable features between ocean and air

nobody, nowhere, nothing to glean comfort from

you decide to be your own soulmate

but even the thought of loving, or even just accepting yourself

makes your heart drop and your stomach churn

this feeling of nothingness

this echo of dead quiet

broken up by unbearable shoutings of failure

i am an arid landscape

as far as the eye can see

i am a desert island

surrounded by nought

i am the dim night sky

looking down on bleak futures.